Name : Wan Nurafifah Hani Binti Wan Mohd Noor
ID number : 16468
A mistake that taught me an important lesson
To be love and wanting to love someone is something so beautiful that a person can experience but it is also something that we should never take easy of, as life is not always as we expect them to be. We always hope for something better in life and when we actually thought that we had that someone special, without us knowing what they’re real intention was which makes us feel more hurtful than we thought we would be when knowing the truth. That was what happened to me. A once in a lifetime experience that I hope I never want to experience anymore.
When I was 14 years old, I actually thought that I had found the right person that could take care of me for the rest of my life without knowing when I said “yes” to his question, I actually made a mistake that change my whole life. I still keep thinking every single day whether I was that easy that make him fooled me that easy. For the first 6 months everything was just going smoothly but everything change as time passed by. We had more fighting that I thought we would have and he change to someone I don’t remember of knowing once before. He was my best friend before but as I get to really know him better, I surely don’t think I want to know anymore.
What really hurt me more is when I know that his real attention was not to actually take care of me but the vice versa of it. When knowing the truth, I had really felt like as if a knife was stabbed to my heart. It broke my heart and for some reasons, I started to hate men. For actually 1 year and 3 months we had been together, made me more stupid for not realizing the truth. He actually made me fall for him head over heal and made me do anything just to make him happy. It was just a game for him. I was just his little toy that at anytime should be thrown to the rubbish bin.
Luckily, I had my closest girlfriend with me at that time and she was the one that actually made me realize my mistakes. She was the one that had been with me till now. After I broke up with him, she kept me accompanied and she was there to listen to me crying and listen to what my heart wanted to say. I sure did cry every single day and for that every day I felt useless for actually falling for him. It took me 2 years to fully forget him and accept the fact that everything happen for some reasons.
I am now 18 years old and still young in this kind of stuffs but I am still hoping that one day, that guy which is really meant for me to come. I know it’s hard to believe this but I think now I am becoming more mature in this kind of matters. Until now I still haven’t found that right person even though I’m still hoping that I could find that person as quickly as possible. I truly feel traumatized sometime to actually be in a serious relationship because I am scared to be hurt but I know that if I don’t take the risk then I won’t know who my prince charming would be. Some people might say that at the age of 18, it would be too young. But for me age doesn’t matter when you actually find that right person. To find that someone then I have to be ready physically and mentally to actually be hurt and happy one day because I don’t want to be the perfect person for him but I’d want to be the right one for him to live for the rest of his life.
